Gratefulness

So I dropped by Karl’s office yesterday to have dinner. But before we could leave, he had to do some work. I then busied myself with Wicked. Apparently it is going to be showing in Singapore *wonders* “Should i go?” Road trip? Maybe.. see first.. Dec IS a busy month.

Anyway, another round of introduction with the different Seligi involved people and the greatest man to understand the RB211 (outside of the engine’s own company). All have been really nice.

The highlight of the night is walking in KLCC park and talking about life and what we should be thankful for.

Lately, I is emo. Nearly every single day has bits of it tied together. When I start thinking about how tired I’m becoming. When I start pouting at every little thing not done right. When I start crying because I see how packed December is going to be, my weekends that is. I start tear-ing because I just want to drop everything I’m doing and wished that others would be in my shoes for a sec (yes i know, I’m being a fish monger here). I start tear-ing when I open emails from a certain sender because it is just too overwhelming to arrange for practices and worry about song viability.

So that night in the park, while Karl was sharing about what he was thankful for coupled with the cool night breeze, I was forming my own ‘Thankful list’.
I’m thankful that my parents are able to give me a life that I’m currently having.
I’m thankful that I have a car to drive around.
I’m thankful I have a degree (albeit it just being a paper)
I’m thankful I have a sister who shares good food with me.
I’m thankful I have a job.
I’m thankful I have a GOD that loves me for who I am.
I’m thankful I’m learning to find where my security lies and who defines me.
I’m thankful that Karl is around when I need some sense knocked into me head or when I need someone to make me laugh.
I’m thankful for the few friends I still have and love.
I’m thankful for the random young ones that have taken a place in my heart, making me smile.
I’m thankful for the rain.
I’m thankful that I’m still alive…  

“He is a wise man who does not grieve for the things which he has not, but rejoices for those which he has.” – Epictetus

 

Shrinking?

Lately I have been feeling and thinking too much. And every time I watch an episode of Private Practice, I’ll keep remembering what Tab suggested to me during the 2nd day of my meltdown. “Maybe you should talk to a counsellor. You just need people to ask you the right questions so that you can answer them yourself” Addison in Private Practice latest season begins seeing a therapist to sort herself out. I do know that it is just a fictional character and a series, but I tend to think a lot. And some times it’s pretty damaging. Some times it makes me stone a whole lot. So maybe talking to someone wouldn’t be so bad. The thing is, I err, know most of the counsellors in the only Counselling Centre I know. And I don’t think the fees are all that cheap. Hmmmm.. will see how..

I made a decision today regarding one matter. And now it’s to do the other one. I’m not needed there any more. But I’m still going to be there for those who need a listening ear. Those who need someone to talk to. Those who need a hug.

I just need to jump like they do. Reaching for the stars, well in the case of the photo below, reach for the SUN hahahaha..

 

Are you serious?!

It has been 13 years since this place last flourished. This place receives about close to 100 visitors a day not including the very first year this place was launched. Probably about 500 or so stepped foot here. Where people admired plaques and awesome greenery, it is now replaced with bare stones and wilting trees and flowers. Though you can still find some beautiful plats and usable exercise equipment, all that you will ever notice is the stench from the stagnant pond and the unappreciative sight of where plagues were once placed. Steel memento that were stripped from its rightful place in the park have probably been sold off a year after the Commonwealth Games in 2008 (not surprising if it was stolen and sold off after a mere 2 months from the closing ceremony. All that you have left is the shell of the park. The trails and the grassy fields for children who would still want to come and play in.

Gone are the glory days of the Commonwealth Hill. It is really sad to see how beautiful parks are vandalized and not kept in good condition.

Comparing to the Dong Baek Park Island in Busan, Korea. It was just a sight to behold before stepping in it. Everyone was talking about it, Anna asked me to visit it (if I remember correctly). Being there was just surreal. It was beautiful beyond any place I have seen in the past 23 years.  What amazed me was how fresh and new that place looked although it might be nearly as old as the previously mentioned park. There were mementos from the last APEC summit Busan hosted and things were certainly not vandalized. It was practically an open park, big enough to drive around. BUT it was well taken care of compared to the ones in Malaysia.

The building on the far right is the APEC building in Dong Baek, Busan

I wonder what happened to the image of a ‘Harimau Muda’?

Commonwealth Hill should have been a place where visitors come to but all that is left to see are ruins. Who wants to visit it? Would a tourist find it attracting? Obviously not with a BIG O.

It’s sad that places which hold history or are a part of history are being treated this way. Don’t you even wonder why manhole covers or drain covers are stolen? Who are these thieves that steal important possessions like the 2008 Commonwealth mementos.

People are not that sentimental anyway. Who cares, you ask?

A fellow Malaysian 

 

How my gmail looks like :)

This is how my gmail looks like when the weather is rainy..

This is quite scary some times when I don’t expect it, my gmail becomes black..

However, the feature lags. LOL.. Cuz when it’s done raining in the real world, my virtual gmail is STILL raining.. ehehehe.. maybe they sync in with some other place in KL. But generally it works out fine.

Just wanted to share. Off to Christmas practice.

 

Miss how it feels to be above 20 floors

I’ve been to this place pretty often till I know where I’m heading and the protocol involved. This is currently the only building that reminds me of Busan because of it’s height, although this building is very much taller by about 10 floors. I just miss being higher than the 9th floor. *thinks about Busan*

I got introduced to a ton of people last night before heading to dinner. BUT I only remember a few. I guess the easier names. Most of which I met were female engineers.. a wee bit intimidating but generally VERY welcoming. One girl even said, “Welcome to our home” and flashed me a huge smile. LOL… pretty interesting people.

I like being there, watching this person work… and i get to read at the same time or finish up something I need to do.

Spending time with you are always nice always makes me feel better after a long day.. Hee!

 

Habit

I didn’t know that becoming a blogger can make you so rich. RM1000 is affordable? :O

So something that you’ve done long enough or be exposed to long enough will end up being your habit.Whether it be good or it be bad. People always say,

“Choose your friends wisely”.

Because if you spend time with bad company, you’ll end up bad yourself. Spend time with people who’ll push you to be the best you can be, and you’ll be the best.

It applies to things you expose yourself with too.. Movies, books, food (LOL) 

40 days have passed and I like that it has stuck. Reading the Word has never been this enlightening nor spot on.Probably it has but it has been a long time since. I will keep pressing on…

Have an AWESOME week ahead

 

Dedicated to a colleague I’ve known for almost 3 months :)

This is for you, Mr. Nazar, although, you will never get to read this.. but yea.. and I dun have a picture of you to go with this post. oh wells. The smiley chap in Production

“Have an AWESOME time in the other company! Glad to have known you for these few months. You always give me a toothy smile and always ask me to go and  take snacks from the table.. LOL.. No wonder everyone gains weight.. ehehehe.. Take care!”

Today was going to be the last day for this chap because he’s moving on to working in a government company. So we had a meal of humongous ikan bakar and ice cream. I absolutely smiled while eating my ice cream, because I could taste the Dark Choc, YUMMY! I didn’t know we were eating in, so I bought a packet of nasi lemak in the morning. BUT the ikan bakar with BELACAN was the BOMB. exceptionally tasty…

Everyone was just diving in on the ikan bakar in the Production room and everyone is saying that the room now smells like belacan.. OPPS.. ahahaha.. GM better not step in.. LOL.. This company likes to eat. We had pizza for 2 consecutive weeks and now ikan bakar.

Anyways, I’m glad to have met this chap albeit it being for a short time. Meeting people izz nize..

Random note: I have a zit growing on my chin I was just being a wee bit happy this morning that my face is clear THIS week but now it’s no longer.. sigh.. ah wells.. there are much more important things than a zit.

 

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Nights are all taken

So, the weekend has passed and it was an amazing weekend. It was rather packed. But I had some ‘Me’ times in between as well as spend some time with my loved ones.

The best ‘Me’ time I had this week was having dinner after work on Friday whilst reading in Subway. I haven’t done that in a while and it was rather nice. Enjoying a sandwich together with a good book. The best would be in an arm chair with a cup of Dark Mocha. Hehe.. But that is for another day maybe…

So, there was the giving away of 450 ml of blood on Saturday. It was my 2nd time and was a wee bit nervous. Karl and some of my friends were around which helped. Three of us from Youth Ensemble 3 gave away the red stuff needed to save lives. Kimberly was getting more hyper as the blood was pumped into the bag and Joshua managed to donate although he wasn’t too well.

Then was youth group time and it was quite a sight to behold and be there. Looking at Liz and Mike teach and how the kids were engaging with them. I think it’s time… for me to play a supporting role… I just pray that these youth will all grow up to be young people who will guard their hearts fiercely because even at my age, there is still so much to learn and experience what more in THEIR teenage years.

Christmas choir practice came and we had a choreography session after an hour of practicing songs. Pretty fun getting involved in a bit of dance BUT I haven’t danced in a really long time and dancing AND singing at the SAME time isn’t too easy. What with the control of breath, challenging!

Anyways, THIS whole week, my nights are all taken up. By practices and a dinner. Tonight’s dinner was a GREAT time spent over Mexican food on the occasion of Uncle’s birthday.

I better retire for the night or else it’ll be a tiring Wednesday.

*there is something missing here, not sure what* 

 

Vivaldi

I love this font. Although it is a little hard on the eyes.. I still want to use it. Too bad the desktop is not able to register it. I shall look at it’s proper appearance when I reach home later..

I think I succumbed to thinking that this day would not work out but I shall do so NO MORE

I have faith that today will be an AWESOME day.

Because YE3 sang well and touched lives with the special number.

Because I received a smile from Karl whenever I start glancing around at the congregation and musicians’ area.

Because we spent the evening and night celebrating the year we’ve been together..

That’s the plan and I believe that it shall come to pass. i’m excited..

*scheduled to be posted on Sunday nite *