*shrugs*

Flippin… i dun like feeling like this…

i can’t distinctly place a reason to this feeling…

Am i normal?

haha…

Hmmm…

Will i  step into that room tmr?

Will i finish studying by tmr?

How late will i stay on sat?

How am i gonna spend tmr since i won’t be home alone tmr?

What am i gonna learn on sat?

How ok will i be, come June?

I’m in no mood to study more rite now so hence this post…

It’s so weird… it just feels so weird… cuz i can sit here and stare at my lappie’s screen blankly.. and not know what to write type…

okay.. watching that vid above just takes all the blankness off for a moment…

I enjoyed that… it was EXTREMELY random don’t you think?? haha.. more than 200 dancers some more…

i think i just need to surround myself with humour to take the blankness off….

So.. i’m off to finish 2 persons’ birthday presents and prob study if i feel like it…

a totally random photo….

i need to get more books to read come next wed.. cuz after next wed’s paper… i’m on HOLIDAY until July!!! Woot… that’s something to be happy about.. haha…

In addition…

In addition to the post on Stunt day….

If you would like to see some photos of  hazel&nick and their wedding…. take a look at the website below… the photos are  AWESOME….

http://xuenphotoz.blogspot.com/

A land distracted by issues, perhaps??

Last year, i went to Bangkok, Thailand for a one week holiday… it was the week right after they had a seige on the airport… i mean, some of the citizens closed down the airport by sitting on the tarmac/runway i think?? anyway, they were having issues la… N i missed Youth camp for this holiday… it was planned for quite a while and since plane tickets were booked, i decided to enjoy my holiday with my family.. tho part of me wanted to attend youth camp… anyhoos… it was a pretty cool trip all together… i attempted banyak barang wit family members and extended family…

so we boarded the plane to Thailand trusting that it was safe…

And it was… we got there safely… plane ride was alright…

Notice what’s wrong with the picture?? take a guess and spot the mistake…

And so my aunt who lives in Bangkok hired a van to pick us up…. Arrived at her house and it was a well protected house because we had to pass thru 3 guard houses in order to get to the house… lol!

1st guard house…

2nd guard hse

last and final guard house…

Next up on the itenary was a Dinner cruise… we travelled to the banks of Chowpraya River (got stuck in a 1 hour jam.. almost didn’t make it) and boarded a ship.. had dinner and soon, we were off sailing the river… it was AWESOME!! having the wind blowing at you… too bad my phone camera couldn’t take photos moving… i enjoyed it alot…

The next morning, we went to Chowpraya river again because this time, we were going on a canal ride… Chowpraya river has many branches (canals) so we were going to one of the branches..

If i remember correctly this three towers building is an International School..

I may be wrong tho… haha….

sis and Jon(cousin)

some how, this land seemed peaceful at that moment… it didn’t seem to have issues much… people were friendly…. and nice….

Royal ships… only the King can use these…

being in the scorching hot sun….

life goes on eventho there are issues popping up like mushrooms every now and then….

it’s a moving BANK… you heard me correctly… it’s a bank = money…

i wonder why this white house is not helping much in this country…. go figure…

it’s just a house by the canal bank… not like the original WHITE HOUSE

what is it like to stay in a house like this?? almost like living near the ocean… which i hope to some day….

have you ever wondered what is it like to be at your own funeral?? i have… not just once… i mean, i’m not exactly planning it but i mean to know who attended and what happens… I’m just curious.. heh.. dun mind me….

This was part of a structure about to be torn down… it was built for the funeral of the King’s sister…. a huge padang with structures like this… a REALLY grand funeral dei….

the love of the country for the King’s sister/ Crown Princess…

from the tour guide, i heard that she has done alot ALOT to help her people.. so i guess, in gratitude to her contributions to the country…

for as long as i can remember, every sunday on the way to church, buses can be seen near our own country’s King’s palace…

so when i went to Thailand, i visited their King’s palace too.. tho the King now lives in a different palace.. heehee.. giler banyak orang and school students….

i dun remember visiting Agong’s palace thru school trips… in fact, i haven’t stopped by Agong’s palace before.. i always pass by… every saturday and sunday… lol….

This palace is mainly made up of two parts… the temple part and the King’s old chambers – King’s coronation room, bedroom and such….

group shot…

Wong sisters…

This has become a tourist destination instead of the King’s home….

After my other aunt and cousin left for M’sia on tuesday, my aunt (the hostess) decided to bring us to Rayong Beach and on the way we stopped by a place called Pattaya… Nasi goreng Pattaya,anyone?? haha… travelling took a few hours… close to 3 or more…

one was sushi flavoured and the other, double cheese pork burger… cool lays eh??

There must be somethings in which you would wanna try… bungee jumping, rock climbing, travelling the world….

This point in time, i tried go – karting and it was fun!! haha… i know i know.. M’sia got, why go all the way to Thailand to try it rite? well, i’m not sure why too… haha…

Racing full speed… it was AWESOME…

i wanna try again.. this time in M’sia la… haha…

After another 2 hours, we reached Rayong and stayed at a place i can’t recall… supposedly 5 star hotel which was quite costly…. my aunt was quite upset that the supposedly 5star hotel did not have a beach view room…. but it had a beach of course..

Footprints…. Footprints on sand NEVER lasts… it washes off as soon as the waves come in….

My love for the oceans/seas has grown immensely… i love just being at the sea even though i risk getting sun burned.. haha… but i really REALLY HEART the sea… it draws peace into my being… and it’s like a stress therapy for me.. to be at the beach….

I wish i could go to Lumut this coming Family camp… the beach there was AWESOME the last time and i want to go there again.. it’s just that this time… the fee for camp is a bit pricey… still have yet to ask dad… i’ll see how when he gets back…

I wanna go to the beach…. sigh…

the beach really brings out the HAPPINESS in people…

the three of us have tried many things together… ice – skating, go karting, staying up till 3am playing computer games.. haha… fencing competition a long while ago and also to Sunway lagoon (very very long time ago)… spent 3 whole days at the beach in Phuket… got terrible sunburns after that… haha…. the following is the latest so far….

Banana Boat – ing… lol!! ;D

Basically, the beach was the highlight for me on this trip to Thailand… it was an AMAZING trip despite some stuff that happened… but i enjoyed a lot…

Some weird food before we left at the end of the week….

looks like worms don’t they?? well, they are just EXTRA fine cendol… haha…

Green mee… not sure made of what tho…

Hawker food…

Besides that, on the road… i saw pink taxis… bright PINK ones….

To end this post… i know there are like tons of photos in this post.. haha… i’m sorry.. but i guess pics says more….

so to end it, to show the GG – ness of parking lots in shopping malls… there were so many cars that my aunt had to double park in an indoor shopping mall car park…. *take care peeps… till the next post… *

i don’t think you’ll get to see this happening in Malaysia…

Random – ness

Hari ini, I went back to 3rd residential college to move everything in college back home and it totally filled the whole SAGA.. lol… ok… not that much la… front seat wasn’t really filled… but it was quite a lot of stuff to carry down from 2nd floor… went up like 4 times i think… haha…

So yea… i’ve OFFICIALLY checked out of 3rd college and well, basically, i’m not feeling nostalgic about it cuz i wasn’t staying there for more than a month edi… the only thing i miss is my friends in 3rd….

hmmm… ok….

what else? erm… need to continue studying for last paper…

ok..that’s about it for this post and btw, i feel like posting up another thing.. haha.. see you in a bit…

random pic for the day…

My ‘P’ sticker which i’m not sure when i wanna take it out tho it’s almost a year edi since i’m off ‘P’ license…

Any one wanna take it out for me?? cuz i dun feel like doing it… haha… just pure random – ness…

Intercultural Communication

I was reading up on one section for my last paper next week and i came across this… Just thot of putting it up….

… a wrong message may be repaired, an apology may be extended but the fact remains that once a message is sent the effect it has on the receiver is not easy to erase…

Intercultural communication is EXCITING… heh… seriously i MEAN it…. i’m not bored by it cuz it makes me think a LOT…

which may not be too good sometimes…

aching… not liking it but i think i’ll continue it….

A stunt Day…

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I left my house yesterday for church at 8.45am…. for Hazel’s wedding…

I reached there early and continued studying Morphology… people came and pass by and all… Then at 10am, it started… Bridal March.. the ring bearer and flower girl were SO SO cute… haha… Hazel looked AWESOME… Then, had worship, led by Kevin,Serene and Darren Here.. Then scripture reading by 2 of the family members of the happy couple i think… then was short a message by Senior Pastor… By that time it was 10.35pm, guess what i did then….

I left the wedding for this….

this was the easier part of the paper i think…

I’m sorry, Hazel… but i left your wedding so that i won’t fail my Morphology paper… sigh… i wished it didn’t clash….

I left Hazel’s wedding for the above paper – Morphology and well, it was an okay paper la… almost the same GG ness with Lit paper but i’m entrusting them to God.. not gonna worry about them…

After the paper… i went back to church for youth… it was a good lesson… Priority 1… my LG ventured into a discussion most of the time.. these guys really think ALOT and there was one part where i felt like they were talking about my life… We were discussing about leaders/christians in the analogy of the star… Stars shine brightly until a certain point where they run out of fuel and just burst then become blackhole that sucks everything around it into the hole that it has become… Ervin said that prolly some people are scared that they might just become a blackhole so they are afraid to be leaders where they are influencing people and when they fall, they are afraid of bringing people down with them… There’s abit in my part… yet, i’m trusting in God as i prepare myself… hmmm….

After youth was choir prac… We had like vision casting? nola… more of goal casting perhaps?? haha… we were to set goals as we served in choir this year… it’s was a good time of thinking what choir is to me… i’ve always liked singing.. the closest i can get to music is singing hence i dislike times when i loose my voice… neways, while i was comtemplating, thinking… i saw the sun coming thru the tinted windows into the darkness of the room… (chinny turned off the lights so that it helps us to think and meditate better.. haha) and as i saw the image, i knew what i wanted to see as choir sings or as i sing as a W.O.W (Warrior Of Worship) singer… i know it’s rather abstract but yea, that’s what came to me… As we sing or as i sing, i want the songs to be like light seeping into the darkness in different individual’s lives… how does that happen?? by singing the songs meaningfully… Not a song is to leave my mouth without having ‘weight’… not an easy task… but i’ll try… besides that, i want to improve in my singing as well… pretty insecure of my own voice, scared i SUDDENLY become tone deaf one day… i’ll try to improve on theory and also to be able to figure out parts on my own… things that will aid in making me a better singer and also a better choir member… i’ve always felt at home in choir despite the uncomfortable-ness in hearing my own voice… gaining confidence slowly and i also can’t be too at home in choir… can’t be stagnant.. must grow…

After choir prac, i went to Bukit Utama for Teens’ Class party… i’m no longer a teen btw, i just ‘crashed’ the party cuz my sis was attending it and i was suppose to fetch her home… HAHA! i spent it talking to people… most of them i know wan… so yea… catched up with chinny… brian chong was one hilarious guy! I left around 10pm and chinny said that this was the earliest party to end… Lol!

That was my stuntday… basically the most stunt thing was because i attended a wedding for half an hour then left to take my exam… not exactly VERY stunt but still stunt for me… Mom was like, “What?? Dun be late for your paper…” haha…

Okay la.. a few random pics to end this post…

little blessings for the uni gang….

uni basketball team after our last game with 9th coll, with coaches and supporters…

I’m blessed with friends like these in uni….

That’s about all for this time… i’ve got a one week break to study for Intercultural Communication and also finish up other personal stuff this week.. might post up more stuff as this week passes.. take care peeps…

Mixed…

I’m feeling mixed up at the moment… today is by far the WORST DAY this year… why???

Cuz i couldn’t finish today’s paper… i took a ridiculous 1 1/2 hours to finish section A and the rest was done in like 1/2 an hour… i seriously don’t know what to expect for this paper….

Then, i wanted to go buy credit for sis and myself so i stopped by 7 Eleven, the parking space was like small cuz a van parked extra into my space… so i  accidentally scratched my car with another car’s rubber bumper… ended up my car has like 2 blue lines which won’t come off and they are horrendously looking thick lines… so i think that the other car is fine… the owner wasn’t around and i couldn’t do anything… i was just so ANGRY with myself… *i still am actually… sigh*

After that, i wanted to get outta the car to buy credit so i looked for my handphone pouch which became my purse for this week and guess what, it wasn’t in my bag… ARGH!! I’m just so disappointed and angry with myself right now and i don’t like the feeling…

The thing is,i’m not sure if i accidently dropped it while taking my stuff out for exam or someone took it from my bag when i left it outside the exam hall… i’m upset about losing this handphone pouch cuz it was my bday present given by Liz, then my aunty gave me RM50 digi credit which is inside the pouch (my phone has like less the RM 1 of credit left…sigh…), my Touch and GO card, which my dad JUST reloaded last sat.. and my money that i earned back from entreprenuership day….ARGH!!!

But Thank GOD i kept my IC and driving license, ATM card with my Student ID card cuz it was in the exam hall with me…

I’m thankful yet at the same time, i lost so many things and scratched my car besides not finishing my paper…

I’m wanting to be ok but this upset feeling just overshadows everything…

I’m not really in the mood to do anything right now….

where art thou??

I need a

i think this is in the pouch as well… sigh….

Pick one…

My identity (Coincidence No.2?)

I’m having a slight headache but i think i shud post this up because i find it a surprise or actually a soft knock on my head….

IMU LG at my place just ended not too long ago… and Sam Ngeow did a short discussion / bible study on 3 different bible characters but there were so much similarities…. and in my context, it’s quite similar to the situation i’m in…

He talked about Jeremiah, Sarah (Abraham’s wife) and Moses… All of them gave excuses in the beginning.

For instance, Jeremiah said that he was only a child and that he doesn’t know how to speak…

Somehow, thru this discussion, i saw myself in it… one of my reason for taking a break is because i’m not good in teaching lessons and i want to improve yet i’m not sure how…. The thing is, if HE has called me to be a________, then i’ll have to be good at speaking, yet i find myself failing and failing everytime i taught. so now it looks like my excuse for taking a break is because i’m not good in teaching (which is only one of the many reasons why i’m taking a break)

THE MAIN thing is actually my identity… One speaker during last friday’s open session said that when you know your identity, it will NOT matter what others(or yourselves) think or say about you…

What is my identity??

it’s pretty ironic because a few months ago, when i was teaching my old CG, i was telling them about HUGE camp 2 years ago and what God assured my then, that I was HIS CHILD… and here i am second guessing myself…

in the discussion, i said that normally we know and understand that God will be with us and We are HIS children, but because of all the setbacks and failures that we ourselves ’see’, the negativity in us seems to pull us away from the very truth that we know… Hence, the need to die – to – self and to really cast out all negativity…

I glanced at my wall and saw this verse, ” It is in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for.” Ephesians1:11 (The Message translation)

So the knock on my head is to remind me of my IDENTITY… i know it yet i gave in to all the insecurity in me that i became a person i do not know…

So INSECURITY, you will not have a hold in my life… i’m gonna die – to – delf daily and it doesn’t matter who is upset or disappointed with me, it will not have an effect… how people see me or view me is not as important as to who HE sees me as…

Lord, please help me to have continual focus on YOU….

i better go now, or else headache will get worse…

take care… belle out….

Profi II is up tmr… no feeling for it la.. which is scary in a way.. haha..

Coincidence?

As i was reading my Bible after posting up the previous post, i stumbled upon this…

Psalms 29:3 – “The voice of the Lord is over the waters; the God of glory thunders, the Lord thunders over the mighty waters.”

In my previous post, i used the metaphor of the sea(water) and ‘jumping’ into it… so the moment i read this verse, it connected all of a sudden and to me, what it means is that, He will be there when i jump in and when i’m in it… It has brought an assurance that i’m on the right track currently, to ‘empty’ myself and to continue reading His Word daily… and also to die to self… because right now, to die to self is an EXTREMELY hard thing to do BUT I MUST do it because if i don’t, i don’t think i’ll be ready by June… anyhows, i’ll take one day at a time… so it’s a another step to ‘recovery’, to be ready to dive into the deep waters again and i’ll certainly hold on to this verse as i take baby steps into becoming who HE wants me to become… so yea…

Am encouraged at this point of time tho my mind seems to like putting negative thots in my head but i’m posting this up as a reminder to myself that i can do it,

i can get rid of the negativity in me and be more than okay soon…

why am i blogging in the midst of my finals? i can’t seem to remember some things that i’ve read on TITAS… so to get off the stress, i’m blogging…

1 down and 6 more to go… by this time tomorrow, it’ll be 4 more to go….

All the best to peeps who are having exams/finals at this point in time… Do your best and God will do the rest….

Take care and have an AWESOME week in the Lord…