Disappeared?!

Nope, i haven’t disappeared… have just been busy with assignments and presentations… i just finished 2… now just need to complete them assignments… i have one more presentation on fri… sigh… praying that i won’t fall sick… feeling unwell…. neways, yup.. just a quick note that i haven’t disappeared… just that i don’t have much internet connection and time to blog… till when i’m free-er… i shall update….

take care and toodles…

My writing

I was looking for something the other day and i stumbled upon something i wrote 2 years ago… i find that it’s been a long long while since i’ve penned anything down on paper… i enjoy expressing myself thru writing but it’s been a while since i’ve done it due to studies and being busy all the time… To share on what i wrote… here it goes…

I expected many things to happen. i expected from the people close to me. probably because i wanted to feel important for a day. reality struck me even before the day came. if they wanted to do something, it’ll probably be on the day after THE FRIDAY. so i didn’t plan anything for that FRIDAY as i didn’t feel like planning anyway. Just wanted to snooze after lunch.

I didn’t dare expect much since i didn’t really get what i’d wanted the year before eventhough there were many memorable gestures. so, as i walked towards the entrace of my school or rather the exit, i started looking around for the person who was suppose to be there by then.

instead, i got what i’ve wanted. the 2 most important people in my life (other than my family) were standing by the sidewalk grinning at me. that instance was more than a fleeting image. that moment and every part of it was going to be a part of me for as long as i live. much as i wanted to ask them the big question, “Why?!”. it was already answered when they stood there waiting for me to come out.

Probably if i ask, they might have given me the answer i wanted to her BUT i’d already known deep down inside, that i’m somebody to the both of them. it made me feel nice and warm on the inside seeing those two faces grinning at me. nothing much mattered after that instance. lunch with them was GREAT. hanging out with 1 of them together with another friend at Carrefour, playing arcade games, children toys, sports equipment and looking for snacks was GREAT as well. they tried their best to fulfil my wish list that i’d made and MOST of it were accomplished by these 3 who gave me a surprise.

You just know that this image will forever be etched in your mind. You just know it. because it caught you by surprise. because it is significant. because they cared enough to plan something. because thay matter to you. because you expected them to do it and THEY out did themselves and your expectations.

By Annabelle Wong (July 2007)

So yea… that’s it… i’ve got to get going… was suppose to post up something else too but outta time….

Toodles and have a GREAT week ya…

Random picture(s) for the day…

on the plan back to KL from Bangkok last year…

Anyone wanna buy bookmarks for RM1.. my group is called JUST BUY IT. we are selling book marks for entreprenuership day… you can customized it if you order before next wed… here’s alook at them… if you want, let me know as soon as possible…

A week of discovering oneself…

Today is prolly the last day or the second last day of the week to some people… To me it is the ending of my weekdays and the beginning of my weekends…

a stress filled week along with mood swings every now and then…

I discovered that altho research paper is stressful yet it has made me much more organized in writing the paper… i’ve certain sections almost done… just need to add, organize abit and then compile.. it’s almost done.. just need one more interview which i’m going to have on sunday..

I discovered that reading the Bible really does me alot of good.. I’ve been reading like 6 – 7 chapters a day… not verses but chapters… Chapters are not short.. haha… but yea, it’s doing me alot of good… Thanks TAB!!! for encouraging me on…

I discovered that i still want to play basketball…

I discovered that i need to spend more time recovering and discovering… I’ve not actually decided what i’m going to do in terms of ministry… i want to serve but not at this period of time… actually i’m still serving but in smaller ministries… I just don’t want to jump into the ‘bandwagon’.. now, don’t get me wrong, i’m not saying that ministry is like a bandwagon… i’m just saying that because all my friends are serving, i don’t want to join it just because they are in.. I want to join when i’m the right state of mind and i want to join when i know that i can give the committment that it needs.. i don’t want to find that along the way, i’ve slacked… because ministries deserve better…

one can say that you’ll never know if you haven’t joined.. well, i have and for the last few months, i’m disappointed with myself for not giving my best because the YOUTH (CY) deserve the best… Follow – up deserve the best too… and so does GOD deserves my best… i’m kinda back to square one because the moment i step into it again, there’s no stopping and i really REALLY do want to give my BEST…

In my own world…

I realised that everyday is a different day…

i can get really hyper and excited one day and really sad and depressed the other…

i seem abnormal la… and it’s really tiring being in two different extremes…

one day i can be so blessed and happy and the next i find myself being irritated quickly or sad over something…

my mood swings are horrible…

looks like my world is not settled yet.. a long long way to go perhaps…

BUT i learned something… when i was not ok yesterday, i spent half an hour reading the Bible chapters that Tab sent me and after that, i felt at peace… not irritated, upset or emo…

So that’s something that i’ve learned…

Trust His HEART…

I just finished my 3rd presentation just now for my Research Paper course… This presentation was the least prepared one cuz i had done only one interview out of 3… so i was telling myself, “Cham la…. “

But guess what?? i got an 8/10… Thank GOD!!! *wipes brow… *

Trusting in Him is definitely the 1st of many steps ahead to ‘recovering’…. But yea, with this simple result, i’m thoroughly blessed and encouraged…

Here’s a song from the Easter Production that i’m in… just the verse/chorus la…

God is too WISE to be mistaken,

God is too GOOD to be unkind,

So when you don’t understand,

When you can’t see HIS plan,

When you can’t trace HIS HAND,

TRUST HIS HEART….

*

I like this song… it speaks truth…

What has been happening do far?? PTH is done and over with… i was one of the photographer of that day… Pretty tiring to kneel and take photos during every performance…

BTw… i didn’t know that uni students could be so…. i can’t describe it… well, this is wat happened… someone stuck their chewing gum on the bumper of my car…. CHEWING GUM on my car…. argh… uncivilised betul….

Neways, i’m looking forward to saturday… It’s kinda like my first day in CCSM… not sure how it’s gonna be like…hmmm…

Okie.. need to go eat lunch with mom and sis edi… shall update the next time if i’ve got anything to update…

Toodles peeps…

“People interests me, Conversations don’t” ~ House~

I think for myself, it’s the other way around… conversations interest me.. hehe..

Take care…

A long weekend…

I had a pretty long weekend… not exactly rested as well…

Neways, this post is about one question…

WHAT is IMPORTANT to you?

THis question just sort of popped up and i’m gonna try answer it as best that i can…

Well, what is important to me… My relationship with God… It’s not really ok yet ok at the same time…

I’m needing this break time to re-focus and redefine everything… i don’t want to stand on shaky foundation… i want to stand on a strong  foundation that will not waver the next time a storm comes…

Another thing that is important is my family… i need to spend more time with my family… Being in college has made me realise the importance of family and how much i miss them.. ( yes i know, i’m still in KL but that’s how i’m feeling… i’m pretty attached to my family… hehe)

Besides that, my friendships are important to me… have been so busy with ministries and studies that sometimes, i don’t talk that much to certain people… i don’t communicate as much as certain people…

I’ve come to the point where studies are not THAT important yet important as well cuz i need it to move on in life but not as important as maintaining my relationship with family and friends…

I was talking to WC(not water closet, mind you) on Sunday and well, coming out of that conversation, i see a much more matured person before me(even though she’s younger than me)… She’s much more veteran in terms of ministry work and is still serving while i have let go of some ministries due to the fact that i need a break.. to me, WC is really strong in her faith and in wat she believes in…

I also spent ‘dinner’ (a cup of Starbucks.. haha) talking to SF… We discussed various stuff and i’ve come to see the passion that she has for her ministries… a young person after God’s own heart… she never fails to sit with someone who’s lonely… she’s friendly like WC…

quite a few similarities between them.. haha… in my opinion la… others may beg to differ…  but that’s how i feel la after this weekend where i’ve talked to them for quite a bit…

I want to change from this time of ‘BREAK’… i want to come back stronger and more passionate….

Change me, God… i need to be changed….

Well, i’ve got to head off…

A quote from Dr. House.. haha.. i like his show…

“Almost dying DOESN”T change ANYTHING. DYING changes EVERYTHING….”

Majlis Anugerah Kurshiah

Well… here are some photos of the night… i won’t talk about it.. the photos will la… hehe…

Ah Chai and I

Ang and I

XMin(Lynn) and I

Louise and I

Kim Kim and I

Giselle and I

Elen and I

Bun and I

us...

Syok sendiri... eheh...

yup… there we go.. that was the last and final picture i took with me friends…

More pics on Facebook….

Gtg… toodles and take care….

Replacement of HDD

Well well, yesterday my laptop underwent operation again and it has a new HDD installed… Woot… so far i’ve got no problems using it… things are moving pretty fast… haha… Am glad that DELL acts REALLY fast… not too bad…

Am thankful that lappie is fine again.. hehe…

Hmmm wat else’s up?? i can’t seem to be able to get into UM’s Journal Database and i actually really need to… need to get some journal acticles out… hmmm…

Pesta Tiong Hua is next tue… Anyone free at night?? you all are invited to come for it… It’s free… At 3rd Residential College… Alot of performances… Come if you can ler…

As for the post on MAK… i’ve yet to get all the pics… soon soon la ya… haha.. :)

Alright.. gtg and try and dig the journals out…

Another time for another post… hopefully a more substantial one, perhaps??

Oh before i forget, yesterday night was cool… i went to church for Easter Choir prac and Prayer Emphasis Week… I went to get a sub for dinner and while i was lining up, someone jump appeared out of nowhere… EMMY!! haha… she gave me a fright.. lol! after getting my sub, i joined her and ben at KFC… hearing about her lab partner was really fun… and Em looked and sounded really irritated.. eheh…

For practice, the youth guys were teasing Em cuz she’s vertically challenged  fun size.. haha… (according to the shirt Mae has that said: I’m not short, i’m just fun size.. ) lol! When we all stood up to sing, we couldn’t see Emmy, just could see her hand swinging, so she had to stand on the chair to lead us… it was fun! and well, i forgot some of my parts… it’s back to prac with the cd player in my car… *Em, i’m sorry for using the word vertically challenged… i’m vertically challenged too… so dun be offended ya?? )

Okay.. i shall head off… i’m seriously not getting into the database.. sigh…

Lappie’s acting up again… sigh…

My dear lappie is not ok.again.. hmmm… shall wait for the dell person to come check it out ler… sigh…

MAK is over!!! yay… haha… but i did enjoy it cuz of my two awesome uni friends who helped me out with make up and all… i’ll post up pictures when i compile everything…

And TAB is back!!! but have yet spent time talking to her yet… prolly later on ler…