Year 2008

This post isn’t exactly what one might think it is….*dun feel really well to blog to the max*

As this year comes to an end… i wanna say that this year has been a good year indeed…. Yet as this year ends and next year starts, i’m faced with many decisions to make… haven’t been able to sleep well these last two night as they are many things going thru my mind besides getting food poisoning last nite which caused me a horrible nite last nite…

This year exposed me to many different challenges and with that i can’t really say that i’ve grown up much… but i’ll say that i’ve learned more… i’m no longer upset with certain people and i’m still missing certain people… i’ve missed certain opportunities yet i understand that whether or not that opportunity comes again, i’m much more certain about what i want in life… i’m much more certain on want i’m looking for… i’m certainly happy with my course… not very happy with coll(i’m not gonna let that hamper my spirits)… I’m certainly glad to see those in my CG grow…

Yes there are regrets… yet it will not define who i am…. at the end of last year i was wondering who i am… and this year end… i’m making my decisions based on who i actually am… the people i know, they do not define who i am… they just help shape me into ME… i know what i like and what i want… it’s no longer what he/she wants me to become or sees me becoming… it’s what I want and it’s also what He wants… I’ve learned that i’m not made for certain things and tho it might be sad to know that fact… yet i know that i’m made for something else… something destined for me… i don’t need to follow someone elses footsteps… i’m making my own….

I find myself no longer walking behind you, you or you…. I don’t need to become your legacy… i can start making my own… but i still need guidance… and i think it’s no longer from you… as our ‘roads’ have each gone south and north… different directions altogether….

your memories are there but i don’t live in them anymore… i’ve moved on… and it took me quite a while to move on… i trust that you have moved on too… i wish you all the best…

i know i’m not making much sense but these are what i’ve gone thru so far in year 2008… there’s more… but i’m unwell to recall all…

i shall not re-create ME in someone else as everyone has a right to their own life… that’s why i made you think on your own… i didn’t want to tell you my opinion and put it across and make it become yours… you are entitled to your opinion and i am entitled to mine…glad that you thot it thru and came up with a conclusion urself… we need to be respectful of  ‘them’… i’ve learnt that time and time again….

i’m actually typing out what comes into my mind.. so don’t bother if you dun understand.. haha…

Just incase i dun get to do this tmr….

BleSSed NeW YeAr 2009 peeps….

this blog is turning a year old soon and i’ve actually passed the 100th post mark a few posts back…

no photos this time cuz something wrong with the photo thingy…. will try when i feel much better….

Live a life that is of you… *just a random thot*

and as my mentor just told me…

Don’t settle for 2nd best…. *dun worry… i know what i want… won’t simply make decisions…*

Friends

Wanted to post about this before i left for Thailand… but ah wells…. here it is…

Friends… There are many different kinds of friends…

Aquaintance is also counted as friends

Normal friends are also counted as friends

Good friends are also counted as friends

Close friends are counted as friends

Friendship has different levels of trust…

it is up to the people involved whether or not they wanna talk about certain things….

it is up to the people involved whether or not they are comfortable enough to share about different things…

being comfortable…

not everyone can be comfortable with everyone…

yet one can try…

It is also up to a person whether or not they wanna ’work’ at a friendship….

A friendship can’t work if one end isn’t committed to being friends…

*i find myself being not inspired to write this anymore…..*

Neways, i’m thankful for the friends i have.. for the people i know…

Tho there are times not a word is spoken nor a period where we hung out…. yet a small gesture that warms the heart is actually enough…

As this year comes to an end in about 1 more day… i wanna thank every single one of my friends… for being a friend to me…. especially to those who ‘worked’ at it…. it’s not an easy task in being a friend as i’m  also a friend to someone so i understand…

So to all the friendships in the world and to all my friends….

cheers…

know that at least there is One person that cares for you much more than others….

Reason for absence….

*wipes off dust*

I’m sorry for disappearing for so long…

Was in Thailand… then, when i came back, i was busy with Christmas… didn’t have time to update this blog….

Will be updating soon… be patient with me… hehe.. i need to finish up some stuff first….

toodles….

A day well spent….

I’m actually blogging from Bangkok. Been here for almost 2days edi.. it’s been nice… i LOVE the windy nights and morning so far… it’s really cooling….

Neways, about my day well spent… it was actually last fri…. i would say memorable… a day worth remembering la…

Well, it started of with me and sis getting stuck in a jam while we went to pick Liz up… Giler  butter la…*butter and jam… haha.. being lame…*

We went to watch Twilight at MidV… it was AWESOME… I haven’t fallen in love with EC tho… He’s good looking… and protective… nice blend… hehe… btw, his sis, Alice doesn’t look very pale like him and his family… haha… that’s what i noticed la… you shud go watch if you belum… i haven’t read the book so not comparing ler….

After movie, we pergi makan kat Nando’s cuz Kenny Roggers too full… don’t have to queue up at Nando’s… haha… Had a good time of fellowship over meal and then, we went MPH for a while…

Left for church cuz was suppose to go do errand for mom… but when we reached church, she edi finished errand herself so she picked sis up and went back to office while Liz and I headed off to BV…. My first time driving to BV.. it was eventful… haha.. neways, we walked to FOS looking for something to buy but didn’t get anything… decided to have a frap from Starbucks so we each got one and sat down to chat…

We chatted about various different things… My stuff and her stuff…

Neways, we talked until about 6.45pm before leaving to get her Christmas present… Bought Auntie Anne’s as well for our dinner….

Reached church, went up to CERC office to eat with Aunty Suh Shian *grins*then, went fro prayer meet…..

It was a long long day with not really much activities… but we talked alot… or we just sat quietly and watch the people walk by the window… hehe…

Yup… a day worth remembering…

Calvary Youth is currently at PD… This is the first time i’m missing youth camp… as Mark puts it, “It’s YOUTH CAMP!!!!”,How can one miss youth camp?? when it clashs with family holiday or work or exams…

THE funny thing was that those that know me thot i was going… and when i said i wasn’t, they got quite a shock…. i shock myself as well… i mean youth camps have been such a part of my life that i wouldn’t want to miss it and well, this time, i’ve to… i guess miss it….

I’m trying to look at the bright side of it… not trying to let the “It’s sad that i can’t go youth camp…” thots get into my head… trying to not “pity-party”

Neways, i will seek God even tho i’m in Bangkok… It doesn’t meant that when i’m not in youth camp, i can’t experience God… so yea… Am praying for camp… hopefully it will be a GREAT camp for the new ones… Am praying also for the various people who have told me what they expect to see happen at camp… so yea…

Gtg… family rushing me off to sleep….

nitez peeps…

A letter not sent….

Dearest ‘Aunty’,

I really enjoyed the last two days staying over with you and your family… There’s probably one thing that i might change if i could rewind time, i would have spent more time talking to you eventho i could barely tell you what i wanted to say… But i think there’s a reason why your two daughters took me out on both days… The kids were practically not going to let me have a quiet time if i were to stay in the house the whole day….

Probably you didn’t want them to tire me out… But i’m really sorry for not having a proper sit down conversation with you during the last two days… i really hoped that i could…

Dearest ‘Aunty’,

You have seen me grow up since i was born… You took care of me the first 5 years of my life when my parents were at work… As far as i remembered, you never scolded me. but i remember clearly that i used to merajuk with you when i was young.Even with that you barely scolded me… I’m sorry if i’ve changed alot over the years BUT know that one thing NEVER changed which is my LOVE for you and your family… Altho there is no tangible thing that bonds us, know that this LOVE that i’ve got for you didn’t change as i grew up and will not change…

Dearest ‘Aunty’,

I’m sorry i let busyness creep into my life and i barely visited you for the last 3years. I’m sorry ‘Uncle’ passed away suddenly and i think that’s why you are in your current state… I’m sorry that i don’t have the guts to give you a hug and tell you that things will be ok soon enuf… I’m sorry for not being able to tell you how i feel about everything that has happened.

‘Aunty’,

When you told me your condition, i felt like crying. I’m worried that i can’t tell you what i want to tell u in time.. I’m actually afraid of losing you… and now i know why we had that conversation in the kitchen… and also the one 3years ago in the dining hall…

I’m not sure if what i’m feelin is what you are feeling but i think there’s something more to just telling me…

I’ll be praying for you… and i’ll be visiting next year soon enough…

i miss you, ‘Aunty’… i hope that the barrier WONT be a barrier any longer….

Love,

Anna

Nostalgia

I miss Sunday basketball…

Liz started with the idea of girls playing basketball while the boys play football and it has been GREAT since 2 years ago.. yeah… had been playing nearly every sunday from that time and i always enjoyed basketball with the gurls… Well, sunday basketball stopped 2 months ago cuz the school didn’t allow us to use their field anymore… boohoo…

Last sunday i just had a taste of basketball again… a group of us, 5 cars headed to Hartamas to play at a public field… played with a group who were already there and it was really cool cuz they were nice… not the serious  serious kinda people… we really had fun and had a good workout as well… haha…

It was then that i realised that i missed CYBC (Calvary Youth Basketball Club)… i missed those who used to come and we would play and laugh at the same time… There were always something funny happening in every game we played and we always laughed till we cried… I remember at a point of time we put up mosquito coils cuz there were lots of them biting us… I remember the time i played in the rain and got really soaked… haha… i remember always leaving the court happy and contented… being in love with basketball… i remember i always run three rounds around the court to warm up… i remember siting at the edge of the court talking to various people(Liz, Em, Tab, Wei Chin, Kat, Christine and others)

I miss the times when i would accidentally call wenly kirly… fight with kirly for the rebound ball eventho she’s about 5 or more inches taller than me…. i really do miss all of them and i miss the birthday surprises we had there… my birthday surprise this year was also done there… i really miss the people there and the time we had… yes, i still see the people on saturday during youth.. but we aren’t playing basketball… and miss doing both at the same time…

It’s sad that things like this happen when we got evicted… sigh…

Tag #3….

The Super 10!
1. Amanda

2. Liz

3. Tab

4. Rach

5. Mae

6. Em

7. Darren

8. Ben Jin

9. Xin Min

10. Louise

 1. Is number 3 a male or female?
female

2. If number 7 and number 10 were together would it be a good thing?
Err… i don’t think so…. haha…

3. How about number 5 and 8?
Well… i’m not sure… but no.5 is already taken… 

4. What would number 1 be studying about?

Erm… not sure… she’s on holiday…
5. Is number 3. single?

I shud think so….

6. Say something about number 6.
I’ve known her for 5 years edi… she’s Little Miss Petite…. haha…

 

done…. actually i’m not sure if i’m doing this tag rite cuz some of the ’super 10′ do not have blogs.. haha…

but anyways… i’m done with this.. so yea…

Another Tag up!

The rules are:

1. You own a blog where you are going to post this to
2. You currently feel bored
3. You won’t skip any question
4. You’re Alive
5. You are going to send this to 5 friends to fill these up

Firstly describe the current you in 5 words:
1. un – stressed at the moment cuz i’ve just finished with week 2 and week3’s lessons
2. a bit sleepy… (hehe…)
3. quiet
4. nerdy?? (lol! becuz i’m very my glasses)
5. alive

Five things you love about life:
1.God
2.Family
3.Friends
4.The little random things
5.Food or the sea?? (can’t make up my mind…)

5 Famous people you’d love to meet:
1. God
2. hmmm… (not sure at the moment… haha)

5 Movies you love:
1.The Bridge to Terrabithia
2.Narnia 1
3.August Rush
4.Wall-e

5.The Lake House

5 professions you’d love to have:
1.Doctor
2.Movie critic
3.Food critic
4.Travel writer
5.Fictional writer… haha…

5 Best Authors:
1.Tim Lahaye and Jerry B Jenkins
2.Dorothy Koomson
3.Mitch Albom
4.Cecillia Ahern( i think so… i don’t mind reading her books) 
5. Random authors…

5 Inspirations:
1.God
2.Family
3.Friends
4.Random quotes
5.Funny Senior

5 Favourite stuff:
1.My 6500 slide
2.My lappie *grins*
3.My story Books
4.My room(not the coll one)
5.The things i own…. *shrugs*

5 things you hate:
1.People who don’t come for meetings on time…
2.Crowded places and extremely noisy places(except selected concerts)…
3.People who seem to think that i’m invisible…
4.People who break promises
5.People who are two - faced

5 favourite places:
1.My room(again… NOT my coll one)
2.Church *grins*
3.Seaside(especially the one in Phuket)
4.Mt. Kinabalu
5.Parents’ respective hometowns

5 girls/guys you are currently liking:

(please do NOT misunderstand)

guys

1. Ben Toh
2. Darren Here
3. Ben Jin
4. CNN
5. can’t think of another one rite now…

girls.

1.Liz
2.Su-Yi, Nikki
3.Louise,Elen,XMin
4.Mae,Em,Rach,Tab
5.Funny senior

5 Favourite people to chat with:
1.Liz
2.Darrren
3.Ji Chen (haha)
4.Louise
5.Rach

5 things you wana improve more about yourself:
1.self-esteem 
2.To not have stage - fright
3.self – image (heh…)
4.To be able to communicate with people i meet for the first time
5.To be in the likeness of Him

5 Things you would take to a deserted Island:
1.My lappie
2.My phone
3.My books
4.Food
5.Water

5 places you wana visit:
1.Australia
2.New Zealand
3.Paris
4.US of the A
5.Galapagos Island

5 Things you really want:
1.To be in tune with Him
2.Lifelong friends
3.Things to go well on the 6th of Dec
4.To have a DSLR and know how to use it properly *grins*
5.To play basketball with the peeps again!!

5 Songs that make you cry the most:
1. er… haven’t cried becuz of songs before…

5 Most fashionable friends according to you:
1.Em

2. too lazy to think of anyone else… hehe..

5 people you love the most:
1.God
2.Mom, Dad, Amanda
3.Church friends
4.Uni friends

5. -YOU-

5 impossible dreams:

1. shall not think of them… heh…

5 Dreams in the future:
1. To have a stable yet exciting job
2. To support my family
3. To travel the world back-packing style
4. To get married (lol!)
5. To keep walking in His Will

now send this to 5 people:
1.Anna Yap (since ur exams are OVER!!)
2.Darren Here (after your exams are over la ya…)
3.Lien Yiny (ease ur boredom.. haha)

4.Beatrice (cuz you gave me another tag)

5. Xin Min