Random-ness….

Here i am again… haha… sounded like a stalker la dei! neways,what was it that i wanted to post ah?? err… *smacks head to remind self*

Ah yes, erm… was complaining to Em the other day that i still haven’t been able to meet some parents for work… then, heard that those parents that i need to meet aren’t that ‘calm’ (you get what i mean la) but then, by about wed, i’d already met all of them and there weren’t any problem at all… haha… Praise God! i was praying about it and well, all i can say is that i shudn’t worry la… and just TRUST HIM!! YUP!

Hey btw, i enjoyed last week’s basketball match alot… even tho i ‘pancit’ after 3 rounds of jogging around the court… the intense-ness(what kinda word is that?! ) of the various matches, made me feel satisfied with it.. haven’t had the chance to play like that since before exam la… am glad i manage to do it last week.. hehe…

wanted to blog about D-DAY but i think i shall do it tmr or something…

Got to leave off now.. so toodles!! Am in love with basketball again!!!

 

Miss – judgement…

 

Am at the office, waiting to go… Sweet fren’s mom fetching me back again… pretty cool… la… btw, mom say 2nd car is on the way… can’t wait and yet scared to get it into an accident… nearly got into an accident last sat on the way to church… gave mom a scare cuz i was 2 inches away from a BIG HUGE truck… was pretty much at shock that when mom started scolding me, i just kept quiet la… didn’t wanna argue wit her not say anything back… knew that i miss judged the truck.. sheesh… shud have listened to mom… aih… neways, wuz pretty much rushing around the whole day… had CookOut and all.. went for AIM reunion.. the reunion wasn’t as GREAT as i thot it would be… this wuz the 1st time after 1 year plus that the group met up… i think so la… neways, we all have pretty much ’surface-y’ kinda talk… not very substantial conversations… and i dun really like what we talked about… anyhoos… i enjoyed the company since a few are flying off somewhere this year… or probably not this year… they are flying off soon la, i think…

 

 

 

What else did i wanna talk about?? will do so in another post la…

 

 

 

That’s all for this post!

 

Feeling terrible… sigh…

I’m still at the off cuz sweet fren’s mom say she can fetch me home today… Thank God la… yesterday family fren fetched me home and i reached home in like half an hour unlike the normal 2 hours… neways, i’m feeling horrible…

 

Class students not listening to me… been raising my voice at them and it feels horrible BUT it gets very very irritating la… Sheesh… 1st time letting out on this… besides that i’m asked to consider something… and i need to give the answer by tmr and latest on thurs… i was just included into a brand new ministry and now i’m asked to consider another one… this is kinda a long term one and i might need to let go of youth choir… WHAT??!!  yea.. neways, i’m was just thinking about other ministries.. and i dun expect myself to stay in youth ministry for as long as i’m here… i mean, it’s a good opportunity.. just that i’m tangled in quite a few ministries now… can i handle a NEW one?! i wish i knew what to do… and i wish i could get a hug… sigh…

 

Felt like crying to let go of stress… wanted a hug BUT there’s no one… aih… :s

 

Anyhoos.. i’ll be okay soon enuf i s’pose… sis kath was feeding me chocs just now… can’t say no cuz i need some ‘happy neurotransmitters’ to help cheer me up… wells, not feeling letting anymore things out…

Hmmm…

 CNY is almost over… But I don’t seem to wanna post about CNY yet… haven’t gotten photos from cousin… shall wait…

What am I gonna talk about?! I’m gonna talk about how I’ve been feeling la…

Miss Princess a lot… and there are thots invading my head, making me feeling upset wit her… I dun wanna get upset wit her… just that this thots are pretty hurting la…

Haven’t heard much from her in nearly two months… not pissed… just disappointed, I guess… prob not disappointed… lonely perhaps… nah… neither lonely… emo… that prob is just it…. hormones too…

Altho I told her that I’ve grown independent of her, I still miss her hugs BIG TIME… she’s one who freely gives hugs when she sees me, last time when she was still in m’sia… I know it’s difficult for her to keep in touch… I guess I just miss her LOADS… and I, pretty much, am in the dark about her life…

You can ask me to not think about all these… so I dun get all those thots… there’s a bad side to it if I dun think about her… I might forget her…. Which I dun want to… I’m not the kind who forgets ppl unless they have hurt me until I dun wanna think about them anymore, so as to not pick the ‘scab’.. and she’s someone who has made a BIG impact in my life…

Her leaving for overseas last year wuz the start of everything crumbling… I pretty much fell to the lowest of the low in my whole current lifetime and I had to pick myself up… not entirely at the top now tho… just trusting Him each and every single day to keep me sane and happy and contented….

Another person close that went overseas (more like over the bridge) just for about two days and I didn’t even KNOW about it… WHAT?! Tab wuz like, “You are her friend and YOU dun know?!” I know she meant it in a friendly way la… she wuz just teasing me la… but it woke me up la I guess…

Congrats!!

Hey sis!!

Just wanna wish you a VERY VERY BIG

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 On graduating from CW to the adult services…

Am so proud of you!!

Continue to grow in the Lord ya?! and come for youth when you can la k… hehe…

Not sure if my dear sis will read this but am really proud of her for graduating last sun.. Can’t stop wit the smileys.. lol… neways, yea…

Valentines?

Well, since some are celebrating this….

Happy Valentines’ Day!!

lol… i hope the photo is conveying the message la… haha…

I’m gonna get sick soon…. ARGH!!! don’t like getting sick… cuz can’t eat chocs edi… and can’t eat lot of other stuff… sigh… kla… shall not spend so long blogging…

Toodles peeps… enjoy yourselves… those who are celebrating today….

Heart breaking…

I’m back from hometowns(notice plural… haha) wuz back at Muar and Teluk Intan… South and North…

CNY this year wuz pretty enjoyable..especially the north side… had BBQs for both places… more cousins came back at the north end… BUT that ’story’ is for another time…

What i planned to blog about is what sorta broke my heart…. or more so a concern…

ppl always say blood is thicker than water but what happens if the condition is a little bit different?

What if the person took care of you when you and your siblings had no one else… and the person raised you up with her own source of finances… even when you had a stable job, she didn’t even asked for your help in funding the family needs…

Now you are going to get married and what not, you didn’t even acknowledge her presence nor asked your who ever to respect her… She’s hurting and you don’t even care… What kinda of a person are you?!

Someone i know who is a very jovial person even my sis thinks she’s AWESOME ly funny, tear-ed when she was talking to us a few days back(us, i mean the family…) what could make such a happy person cry… the very thing that she holds dear to her heart… this is actually the 1st time i’ve seen her cry, i mean i couldn’t even count the times she has laughed and laughed out loud and now for me to see her this heart broken… sheesh… whoever that person is(who is hurting her), i hope one day YOU’ll come to your senses!!

Some ppl seem to think that it’s easy to love someone with all your heart… it’s NEVER easy when that person hurts you so bad you can’t take it anymore…

But LOVE is what compels you to CARE and HELP and ultimately LOVE again…

Love was wat God had towards mankind that He made the decision to send His Son to die for us…

Lord, thank You for loving me and I’m sorry for the many times i’ve hurt Your Heart… Help me to grow to be more like you each day and help me to be a blessing to those who You’ve made our roads crossed…

Break my Heart for What BREAKS YOURS…

Everything i am for Your Kingdom’s cause….

I love you LORD!

Belle off…

Will be back wit photos of CNY and the enjoyable experience… hehe…

Take Care and have an AWESOME week in the Lord…

The time is now i guess… i hope it is….

Switchfoot wuz AWESOME!!

Concert wuz a blast!! haha… went wit a group of about 10 peeps… we ran from the car to the Bangsar train station… went the wrong way and ran again… we were running like there wuz no tomorrow… lol… then, we ran to the train and then when we arrived at KLCC, we ran again and bought something light to isi perut 1st… then, walked as quickly as we could to the convention centre… reached there and lined up for about half an hour… we met up wit marilyn and rach and sheryl… started entering the hall and guess wat we were just 6 feet away from the stage!!! haha… It wuz my 1st time in a rock concert and we were just RIGHT in front!!! lol… how GREAT is that, wei?! neways, i pretty much enjoyed myself, there were about 2 songs that i wasn’t really sure… the opening act wuz not as good as SWITCHFOOT!! obviously rite!! haha… neways, there were really weird ppl there la… there wuz this group of ang mohs who were pushing and shoving and one even brought liquor(sheryl went to complain to the BOUNCER about it and they confiscated it but by then it wuz already empty)… there were the gurls who were shouting rite behind us and my ear wuz probably damaged for a moment… Em’s story wuz lagi funny, a gurl wuz screaming, “Dare you to MOVE?!” when the band wuz posing after the song… and Em sorta shouted back, “Okay la, i move, i move la… ” LOL.. she wasnt sure whether the gurl heard her or not la… then there wuz this once when the lead singer,Jon came and stood up on the fence,3feet away from where i was, everyone, shove forward and i was sandwiched in between so many ppl… giler wei… i’m not that fanatic la… haha.. neways, it wuz enjoyable to hang wit ppl i was comfortable wit like the two best peeps and Tab and some other close friends..i hope i didn’t annoy the ppl in front of me la… neways, after the concert, there wuz a meet and greet session, Em and i didn’t wanna wait in lne so we practically hung out near the elevator, which was near the line… saw some really funny ppl la… after those in group finished taking signatures, we took turns to take pics wit it… haha… lame o… left soon after that and went for mamak… wuz famished wei… ate then, went over to tab’s hse after tab’s fren got her stuff from her hse… slept at about 3 and woke up at 6 the next morning for church…  had an AMAZING day altogether..

am leaving for hometown tmr and last day of work also tmr.. lol… it’s gonna be a good hol, i think… haha… am gonna miss frens…

Another pic up…

got to head off edi..

Toodles and Godbless and have a BLessed CNY ya…

oh and Blessed Belated Birthday Jan!! May God bless you!

Impressions are important wei!!

Am back here again… so quick… haha… neways, went for lunch wit a childhood/family/ church / good friend today… she’s going back to aussie soon so i thot i’d go out lunch wit her la… sis came along and fren kept asking her to speak up… it’s funny la.. haha.. anyhows, we talked and talked and ate… it wuz a good holiday spent even tho i didn’t do what i was suppose to do today… ah wells, will do it during the next public hol la… lol

impressions.. impressions and the way you carry yourself is important… was waiting for fren to pick me up yesterday and while doing that i was talking to sweet friend’s mum(who technically is my colleague.. haha)… surprisingly she knows alot of things and things that i’m not sure she’s sure about them… sweet friend’s mum and another colleague was also commenting about me.. why ME?! i also dun know… they were saying that who gets to marry me is just plain blessed.. WAT?! am i’m that good?!

My head ain’t exploding… but all those that have been said yesterday really woke me up… before this work, i didn’t directly deal wit them, didn’t talk to them much, BUT they noticed me, they notice how i carry myself, how i respond to ppl, how i respond to things… it’s a bit scary but it is true… they notice even when you dun know…

so, how i carry myself is IMPORTANT, how i respond to ppl and such as well…hearing all those sorta pressurizes me… but it also encourages me to walk the talk, to carry myself well and to not go out of focus… yea… am blessed and ‘woken up’ at the same time la…

besides that, sweet friend’s mom also asked me sum questions that showed that she really cared about me… which kinda TOUCHED my heart… she’s a fren’s mom and she cared enuf to tell me that she’s worried about something that might happen… which i assured her that it WILL not la… hehe… it just made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside… am just blessed to get to know her and she waited until the fren came to pick me up which was about 6 sumthing and she takes about close to more than an hour to reach home… so am really blessed la…

Concert’s tmr and am excited about it… hehe… staying over at Tab’s place tmr… abit scared but i think it’ll be okay la… two best peeps are not staying over there… ah wells…

After yesterday nite’s leaders meeting ah… another friend and i got stuck at the guardhse for nearly 50minutes… due to some misplaced card la… sigh… wuz so tired… thank God that everything wuz okay after that…. managed to get home close to 1 am… thank GOD again that parents didn’t sound me… haha… slept until 11 today… WOOT!! haha

what else to say?? erm… erm… i miss ppl and i miss hugs… when can i get a decent hug?? when?!!!! ah wells… wanna stop here today….

Toodles ppl …. God bless…

yay!! can post pics edi!!!